I seem to be stuck on fast forward ……. moving through life without recognizing where I am, what I’m doing, taking time to enjoy my projects.
I rush through knitting a swatch so I can go knit my sock (2 separate pairs actually) and then rush more to finish a scarf and rush more to start a sweater. Rush Rush Rush
All of this goes against who I am. I’m the original living in the moment person. If I have to live in the future or the past I’m so unhappy I can hardly function. Why am I rushing to get to the future? I asked myself this ……….
- I want to finish things
- I have too many interests
- My projects lay there and taunt me, begging to be completed (no, not their fault)
- The inner clock is out of whack
The last one is it. The inner clock is racing forward ……. putting me in a place where brushing my teeth takes too much time. I’m too focused on time ……… and there isn’t any, not really.
I need to readjust that clock – or pull it out and remove it’s gears and wires or whatever is making it speed up. I need to meditate. I need to sit in my room quietly and not think. By doing nothing, I can do everything.
Now that the outer clock has changed, I do need meditation to jump over that lost hour …….. start recognizing supper time as 4:00 and not 5:00 – waking up at 7, not 6.