For the last month and a half, I have been counting calories. I’ve either lost 11 or 20 pounds, depending on if you go from the doctor’s scale in August or mine in November. I have lost maybe one pound in the last two weeks. It is super annoying. Were I on my usual diet of donuts and cheese and crackers, I could see it. On my current diet of baby spinach and tomatoes with some protein thrown in, I can’t.
When I arise tomorrow I hope to see another pound gone. Or not. I’ve been amazed at how much sodium is in any food I consume. Trying to keep sodium under 1300 mg a day is pathetic. I am always blowing by that limit – I was appalled to learn there is sodium in milk for Gawd’s sake. What????? And is it the sodium that’s keeping the weight from shifting? Who knows. I just want it to move out already.
And what’s happening here tonight and tomorrow? Well, it’s already been super cold. The wind chill last night was -20. It usually isn’t that cold here at any point in the winter because we do live pretty close to the coast. But tonight we are also going to be blessed with snow.
I’ve been trying to determine how bad I WANT to lose weight. Especially now that the weight loss has slowed down so badly. I do need the vision of me in a smaller size to keep my diet motivation going, that’s for sure. Maybe I should make a bunch of clothes two sizes too small …………………… nah.
On the husband front, we had another great visit today. He is doing well although he did ask “I come home?” a couple of weeks ago. It fair broke my heart. I try not to gloss over that question but to answer it honestly. We went over how he would have to go up and down stairs, how hard it is for him to shower without help, how hard it was for him to climb into a bed of any height, how if he needs the doctor the doctor is there and how he hasn’t fallen except once since he’s been there. And that fall was because he wasn’t using his walker and he lost his balance. He wouldn’t use his walker here. So he agreed that life is easier for him where he’s at. Finally. We’ll revisit that question many times and hopefully I can lead him to the same conclusion. He truly is in the best place for him, as much as I too would love having him home. I’ve decided we need to get a set of checkers for me to take with me so we can play while we visit. Even though he’s never been much for games, he agreed checkers would be fun. I’m going to look around for other games that don’t have a lot of rules to remember for us too. It will make my visits even better.
Tomorrow I will touch the fire of temptation (cookies) and see if I survive intact or give in and BAKE!