Well, thanks for asking! Actually I’ve been here, squirming in my double fits of depression, waiting for it to lift so I can actually take any interest in the world at all.
Throughout all of this gloom, I have managed to keep the meditation going, so for at least 1 or 1.5 hours a day my mood shifts. And after the meditation it shifts to less of a gloom. Thank. God.
I had a doctor’s appointment on Wednesday and I’m complaining about being blue, everything aching, especially my knees and back and on and on and on. She’s my husband’s doctor too and we talked about how I felt having him in the nursing home, which is not good, dear reader, not good …… worse than I thought I would.
She told me to do some spiritual reading – alas, how can one do more? We talked about the Bhagavad Gita – her being aware that I follow the Hindu tradition and also since she is from India (so helpful to not have to explain anything!) – and my spiritual practice. I cried. She explained to me that I need to grieve. So I did.
And do. I talked about how he cries when I visit. She said to just let him cry – but not to stop visiting or go less often, because he spends all of his time waiting for me to come see him. So I won’t. I actually went to see him right after my appointment and I told him he could cry as much as he wants …………. I’m still going to come visit and there. So he laughed and we had a great visit.
I got home later in the afternoon and did my hour stint of meditation. When I got up, I had a message from my doctor’s office regarding my blood test. It will come as no surprise, since I bake continuously, that my cholesterol is high. Whoops. But the big news? I have a serious Vitamin D deficiency which she wants to treat with prescribed vitamins. Like 50,000 iu (whatever that is) of Vitamin D. Ha.
I jump on my trusty reference. Otherwise known as the internet. I find that a deficiency of Vitamin D can cause heart disease, depression, Parkinson’s and other various nasty things. Including joint pain and muscle weakness, the symptoms are amazingly like what I’ve been feeling. So like a very good girl, I go get my medicine.
I only take one per week for 8 weeks. I’ve had my one yesterday and I already feel better. I scraped together enough concentration to cut out a top today and I actually am not in pain as I sit here. I mean my damn knees do. not. hurt. I am so thankful.
My husband was taking 1,000 iu Vitamin D3. I’m not sure if they’re still giving this to him, but I will check. Notice how Parkinson’s is listed as being caused by this deficiency. I’m hoping they are still doing this but I’ll make sure they do.
So there you are – a little trip to the doctor (my first for me in two years) and I actually get some advice and medicine/vitamins that will help me. I feel triple blessed. And if I can keep that nasty old gloom away, I’ll feel even better!