Well I’m not sure if I am testing the sweater or if the sweater is testing me! I am a new knitter. I learned to knit basic stitches in my teens but I had never made anything with a shape to it until this past year. I’ve done a vest that was too short – and am almost done with a gorgeous pullover and now I’m doing this. I am test knitting this for the designer.
But we have a problem. The sweater is knit bottom up. That means the first 3″ is a rib knit. Purl two knit two ad infinitum. I hate rib stitches. I can’t keep them straight – which is a problem I had on the vest too. So I have ripped and ripped and started over all the while the other test knitter finished this in about a week ……………… ARGH.
I feel like Charlie Brown kicking the football. I’m missing it. I am going to persist because I love making myself frustrated. I will not be conquered by a mere sweater.
The experience is a bit like persisting in meditation. At first I was totally frustrated. I didn’t see any light or any big aura, etc. All I felt was a concentrated brain effort to get beyond and I was just missing something. With practice practice practice I got to the place I wanted to be. I got to such a deep state of being that I was no longer here. Ahhhh that is the best. I now achieve that state always and am now intending to dive even deeper into a state of at one ment.
The horrible news about the terrorist attack in Boston and the subsequent mailing of ricin to a senator has brought back the memories of 9/11 and made concentrating on anything else difficult. I was living in Canada at the time. I went to the post office to mail some checks and when I came back I saw the news on the internet. I turned on TV. And I started crying – I cried for over a month. I couldn’t stop. I felt that my home had been wounded. I knew then that I couldn’t stay in Canada but had to go home. Seven years later we did.
The fear that we all have now is a displaced fear. I am in a small city in Maine so I think the chance of an attack here is pretty slim. Although they do divert overseas flights here if they have suspected persons on board or if the flyers are weird. We are the first airport on the coast with a long enough runway for big jets.
Boston is our major city. It is where we go to fly out if we want to save money. It is the place we go to if we want a big city experience. It is the cradle of our country. We began there.
To hear and see the awful injuries caused by a wanton idiot for no justifiable reason at all is heart breaking. Those injured did nothing to deserve this – we Americans do nothing to deserve this – no matter how many weird left wing people will say we do by “interfering” in the world. We don’t. No country does. Not Israel. Not Britain. Not Iraq or Afghanistan. Not South Korea. Not anywhere.
We have to find how to combat this terrorism and stop it. Maybe we can’t stop all attacks. We have stopped a lot. But here we are again. The World Trade Center has just collapsed all over again.