Yesterday was an awful day. Once again mass murder and hysteria in America. I’m so sick of living in a violent world where human life is valued at nothing.
Violence has been increasing here and there is a reason for this. Our economy is so devastated right now that many people – millions – cannot find enough work. And the work you can find does not provide a living wage. This lack of work primarily affects the poor. The crime rate rises along with the rapid decline in the economy. And we’ve had this bad economy for a long time now. Over 5 years ………
The bombings yesterday may be the work of terrorists. We don’t know yet. This is also going to keep the economy down. Who will travel or shop or go to public places? I won’t. I have enough trouble right here inside my home. I am the only viable being here and if I get hurt there’s no one to take care of anyone else. I hate crowds anyway. Even here in Bangor I won’t go to the fireworks on the 4th of July – too much traffic.
Here in Maine – who will come on vacation? If everyone is scared they will stay home. A terrorist attack in Maine sounds bizarre but until yesterday so did one in Boston. What is wrong with this world?
An answer from my center – what is wrong with this world is that no one lives with peace. Not internal peace. In order to create a peaceful existence you first need peace in your soul. Until you can forget the posturing, the desires that rack your mind, the anger at life when things are going horrible – there is no peace. Peace can happen only in the present moment. And in America we don’t live there. We live in the future – we worry – we are people who strive to get ahead – to be richer – to have more – to beat our chests with pride.
Recently I’ve been re-reading Donna Leon‘s Brunetti series set in Venice. When American tourists are mentioned in her books (and she’s American) it is with scorn for our confidence, our size, our healthy and smiling attitudes – she writes us as smug. When I lived in Canada Americans were viewed with distaste. I was subjected to lectures from grocery store cashiers, not to mention my neighbors, about how abhorrent they found Americans – and they would always add a caveat “Of course I’m not talking about you.” Right.
There’s hate in Canada, in the US – all over the world. We are hated more than other nationalities except maybe for Germans who will maybe never live down the Holocaust. Israelis are hated too. Jews everywhere are still hated. Hate Hate Hate.
Hate eats at your heart. It makes it impossible to be compassionate. If you are not compassionate you are not living in the present. Hate is not in the present. Hate is a reflection of the past onto the future. Hate is stupid.
If they find that terrorists – North Korea, Iran, that other group that hit us on 9/11 – I will not be surprised. I will also not be surprised if the guilty parties are Americans who want to be famous for something. Even maiming and killing – anything to be famous.
And don’t blame this on the mentally ill this time …………… I’ve heard that enough. This gives all mentally ill people a bad feeling. Like you’re going to hunt them down and incarcerate them because of three or four murderers who are mentally ill. There is a huge population of mentally ill people. They do not harm others. They are just trying to survive with a horrible illness and we owe them dignity, not blame for all the ills of our society.
Step back a bit – see if your soul is full of hate. See if you can find compassion for all of your fellow men. Everyone everywhere. Don’t limit your compassion to only people like you – spread it out. Cover the earth with it. Send love and light and caring to every dark corner of our world. Keep doing this – it is essential.